We are almost through with the 1st week of school! Ben has done pretty good so far! He cried today when I dropped him off, but surprisingly he didnt on the first day! Go figure! :) I pretty much had to run out on Tuesday because all the moms and most of the dad's we're bawling their eyes out! Wow that was rough!! I was surprised I didnt cry! I did get a little teary eyed tho!
Aubrey started "school" on Tuesday as well! She was fine when I left her, and actually didnt even realize I left because there we're tons of kids and toys for her to play with! She was very happy to see me tho! Some how they ended up loosing her sippy cup on the first day! She probably threw it away tho! When I dropped her off today, she cried and did not want me to leave! They said she was fine tho shortly after I left. They also said that a little boy fell and was crying and Aubrey went and patted his back and gave him a kiss! :) She's so sweet! She's friended one of the little girls there Annika! They said that the two of them we're inseparable today! I'm so glad she's doing good and making friends there! It makes it so much easier!!
Tomorrow will be 5 weeks since my D&C! I cant believe its already been that long! It seems like just yesterday at times, but then forever ago too! I had my hcg level drawn at work on Sunday and it was 29. I called Dr. Garas to see if he would do another on Wednesday and he did, it was 20.6. So they are falling, just not fast enough!! I'm so ready to be back in the TTC game! I wish I knew how to get the rest of it out of my system like NOW!! I know, I know, patience is a virtue!! It will happen when it's ready! Not when I'm ready!!! Grr!!
I guess now is as good as a time as any to go ahead and start working out or doing something to get rid of my flab!! I'm thinking I'm going to start doing a crunches routine and I want to try that Mederma Stretch Mark Therapy! Maybe I can make that my muse! 12 weeks of crunches along with 12 weeks of Mederma?! Sounds like a plan to me!! Until we meet again....
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Friday, August 20, 2010
Confusion, nervous, and a ball of emotions...
I have been a ball of emotions all week! We decided that Aubrey needed to go to daycare 2 days a week bc of my school and my sister couldnt babysit her. I'm so scared to leave my baby girl!! She starts on Tuesday! I'm going to cry so hard!! Hopefully I will make it out of the building first! Then after I take her I get to come home and get Ben ready for his 1st day of school as well! Talk about a double whammy!! Hopefully I'll be able to stop crying and focus on my first day back to school! My first class starts at 11a so hopefully I'll be somewhat calmed down by then! I just cant believe my babies are growing up so fast! I'm going to upload some pics of them on their first day of school!! I did get them each a new outfit to wear and today Ben picked out his backpack! He was really disappointed when Target didnt have a Car's backpack!! But I saved the day when I found a Batman one buried behind a bunch of Transformers! And to complete it, he got a Scooby Doo lunch box! An odd combo, but he's happy and that means I'm happy!! :)
Well, today is 1 month since we lost our LoveBug! I cant believe it's already been that long!! Most days, it seems like just yesterday, but then sometimes it seems like forever ago! I really want to get a necklace or something with everyone's birth stones on it, but I want something I can add to, for when we do add to our family! On that note, I think I might be pregnant again! I was kind of sporadically testing here and there waiting to get a BFN so I would no when my horomones we're down and when I could finally expect my AF, and I finally got that BFN! Well, since we were uh cleared to uh "get down to business" (as the OB put it!) we did and I figured what the hell, I'll test just for shits and giggles! Well imagine my surprise, when I see a faint 2nd line! I'm literally still in shock! IDK if I should believe it or not. I'm scared to get excited, but I hate the not knowing for sure! Why does this have to be so complicated and confusing?! I may see if someone will draw my levels at work tomorrow night and then maybe again next weekend to see what they are and if they have gone up or anything. I'm hoping to come back and post that I am indeed pregnant again! It would make for a busy May if I truely am!!
Well, today is 1 month since we lost our LoveBug! I cant believe it's already been that long!! Most days, it seems like just yesterday, but then sometimes it seems like forever ago! I really want to get a necklace or something with everyone's birth stones on it, but I want something I can add to, for when we do add to our family! On that note, I think I might be pregnant again! I was kind of sporadically testing here and there waiting to get a BFN so I would no when my horomones we're down and when I could finally expect my AF, and I finally got that BFN! Well, since we were uh cleared to uh "get down to business" (as the OB put it!) we did and I figured what the hell, I'll test just for shits and giggles! Well imagine my surprise, when I see a faint 2nd line! I'm literally still in shock! IDK if I should believe it or not. I'm scared to get excited, but I hate the not knowing for sure! Why does this have to be so complicated and confusing?! I may see if someone will draw my levels at work tomorrow night and then maybe again next weekend to see what they are and if they have gone up or anything. I'm hoping to come back and post that I am indeed pregnant again! It would make for a busy May if I truely am!!
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
The All Clear, sickness, and the trials of parenthood...
Where should I start?! Yesterday, we got the "all clear" to start TTC again! Or as my OB put it, get back down to business! LOL I must say I love my OB! The pathology results were kinda what I expected, but also a little surprising as well! They showed no fetal parts, but came back normal, as in it was a fluke and not my Lupus that caused the miscarriage. I didn't get what he meant by no fetal parts, but he explained that my body had already started reabsorbing the baby after it's heart stopped beating. I'm very relieved that my lupus didn't cause the miscarriage, but I'm sad that we will probably never no either. But, we're looking forward to trying again and having a successful pregnancy!
After the good news at the DR yesterday, Aubrey started running a high fever. :( She didn't really feel warm until we were getting her ready for bed. When I checked her temp it was 102.3*F!! Not cool! So I went to bed around 10 and then Aubrey was up a little before 1a with a fever over 103*F! Yea, umm...way to go Tylenol!! You're supposed to make the temp go DOWN not UP!! So we hang out in the living room and I catch up on some shows thinking "ok, she'll be ready for bed in like an hour max"! Yea right!! We didn't fall asleep until 530a!! Then she was up at 645a, so it was now daddy duty time! My little peanut is still running a low grade fever! :( I hope it breaks soon and we can have a nice restful night!!
Although Aubrey is not feeling up to par, it hasn't stopped her from picking on her brother!! It never ceases to amaze me with the 2 of them! They can be playing so good together 1 minute and the next they're smacking each other and fighting like pitbulls!! Makes me want to rip my hair out at times! Then of course Ben will tell me he loves me and Aubrey will come give me a kiss and all is forgiven! (at least for the time being!!) I wouldn't change it for anything!
The countdown to school starting has officially begun!! T minus 13 days! I'm super nervous for Ben, but I'm also nervous at starting at a new school!! I knew my way around PSC and now I'm starting all over again! It freaks me out just a little bit, but I think it will be good!! Who knows, I may even switch back to PSC for their Nursing program, but we'll cross that bridge when we get there!
Have you ever wondered what if.....? I'm extremely happy that I chose a career in the medical field, but at the same time lately I've been wondering what if I would've gone to med school right out of high school? Or what if I would've taken my scholarships to Johnson and Wales and gone into the Culinary Field?! I know I wouldn't have my hubs and my small people, bc I doubt me the hubs would've probably never met. I definitely wouldn't change anything, but I do have those "what if" moments, especially when watching shows like Boston Med or Hell's Kitchen! I would love to move away and get a job as Mass General or the Brigham or HUP! I just don't no if I'm ready to leave FL and all my family. I hate this crappy heat and humidity, but I'm not sure how well I would fair in the snow! Well enough debbie downer crap and what ifs, now I'm just trying to find a way to convince Tim audition for Hell's Kitchen! Although, I would've loved for him to be on this past season's and had the chance at moving to London to work at the Savoy!!
After the good news at the DR yesterday, Aubrey started running a high fever. :( She didn't really feel warm until we were getting her ready for bed. When I checked her temp it was 102.3*F!! Not cool! So I went to bed around 10 and then Aubrey was up a little before 1a with a fever over 103*F! Yea, umm...way to go Tylenol!! You're supposed to make the temp go DOWN not UP!! So we hang out in the living room and I catch up on some shows thinking "ok, she'll be ready for bed in like an hour max"! Yea right!! We didn't fall asleep until 530a!! Then she was up at 645a, so it was now daddy duty time! My little peanut is still running a low grade fever! :( I hope it breaks soon and we can have a nice restful night!!
Although Aubrey is not feeling up to par, it hasn't stopped her from picking on her brother!! It never ceases to amaze me with the 2 of them! They can be playing so good together 1 minute and the next they're smacking each other and fighting like pitbulls!! Makes me want to rip my hair out at times! Then of course Ben will tell me he loves me and Aubrey will come give me a kiss and all is forgiven! (at least for the time being!!) I wouldn't change it for anything!
The countdown to school starting has officially begun!! T minus 13 days! I'm super nervous for Ben, but I'm also nervous at starting at a new school!! I knew my way around PSC and now I'm starting all over again! It freaks me out just a little bit, but I think it will be good!! Who knows, I may even switch back to PSC for their Nursing program, but we'll cross that bridge when we get there!
Have you ever wondered what if.....? I'm extremely happy that I chose a career in the medical field, but at the same time lately I've been wondering what if I would've gone to med school right out of high school? Or what if I would've taken my scholarships to Johnson and Wales and gone into the Culinary Field?! I know I wouldn't have my hubs and my small people, bc I doubt me the hubs would've probably never met. I definitely wouldn't change anything, but I do have those "what if" moments, especially when watching shows like Boston Med or Hell's Kitchen! I would love to move away and get a job as Mass General or the Brigham or HUP! I just don't no if I'm ready to leave FL and all my family. I hate this crappy heat and humidity, but I'm not sure how well I would fair in the snow! Well enough debbie downer crap and what ifs, now I'm just trying to find a way to convince Tim audition for Hell's Kitchen! Although, I would've loved for him to be on this past season's and had the chance at moving to London to work at the Savoy!!
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