It's been 1 week since the D&C. I'm not sure how I expected to feel, but I'm feeling pretty good. I miss being pregnant and now I desperately want to be again. I want that big ol' belly and to feel my little one playing the bongos on my organs! I never realized just how much I wanted our little baby. Dont get me wrong, I was estatic to be pregnant and couldnt wait until February, but I think part of me also took the pregnancy foregranted and I personally never, ever thought I would have a miscarriage. I definately have a new perspective and outlook on pregnancy and miscarriage now.
With everything that has gone on this past week, it's really got me thinking about how much I cant wait to finish school!! I want to be a nurse so bad now it's not even funny! I'm going up to school on Monday morning (straight from work!) to talk to a counselor again about my financial aid and I may talk to a counselor about what all I will need for my BSN. If I can knock out some of those courses while I'm waiting to get into the nursing program then I will definately do it!! It's seriously time I got serious about school and finishing my degree!! I've been thinking about how much I would LOVE to be a DR, but with the amount of schooling I probably wouldnt even graduate until I was atleast 35!! I would want to specialize in OB/GYN maybe even MFM. (maternal fetal medicine) But I think I've come to the conclusion that I want to become a CNM, Certified Nurse Midwife. I know there is an online program where they team you up with a midwife in your area to do all of your clinicals with, but I've also been looking in to maybe applying to UF for their program! How cool would it be to do clinicals and work at Shands?! After graduation, I would consider moving back here or maybe the Orlando area and working at Winnie Palmer. (If they use CNM's, not sure about that!) Also, there's been a rumor that maybe Watson Clinic is going to start using CNM's as well, to help relieve some of the patient load from the OB's, especially since Dr B has officially retired. I think it would be awesome to work with them! WOW! Enough about school already!
I cant believe how big Aubrey is getting!! Her vocabulary is rapidly expanding and she's definately got a little bit of a temper! (Ok, more than a little bit!) She loves the words "cookie", "ouch", and now "bubba"! It's so cute watching her run around screaming bubba bubba!! Ben doesnt particularly like it, as he thinks she's calling him a baby! :) I cant believe he is about to start Pre-K! He's getting more and more excited about it! I'm a little worried tho, as we have completely spoiled him rotten so he likes to take advantage of us and pretty much whoever he can. We've been having a few attitude problems and listening problems with him lately, but he is only 4, so some of it's to be expected. Seriously tho, no book in the world can actually prepare you for parenting and how bad you may or may not screw up at times! I guess you live and you learn and pray you all make it through the day alive! :)
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