The worst day of my life, so far....

I went to the DR today to have an ultrasound because I've had some cramping. Our little baby no longer had a heartbeat. I'm absolutely crushed! :( I have a mix of emotions flooding through me right now and I'm a total wreck. This is definately not what I wanted to hear 4 days before Ben's birthday. I hope and pray that we can get through this and one day hold our 3rd little baby in our arms...